struggling alone for almost 2 years, does make me feel stronger than before. trying to living my own life alone, move to my new place, having a good and bad times all over again, everything that happens in my life pushing me to becoming more stronger.
family problems, lovers and betrayals, friends and haters, always come and go. my family and my real friends will always stay with me no matter what happens.
deciding to walk out from my parents house and living alone was not bad as much as i think. at first i'm trying to survive by myself in every circumstances. and doing everything by my own self. try to find a work to surviving my own life and paid my place to stay. met lots of new people, new friend, new problems,everything i have to face it everything.
lovers come and go into my life. broken hearts happens to all over again. problems with my family also seems like, it won't never enough. i almost give up and i do feel useless. everything that i do, seems never right at all.
sometimes, i feel like, i miss my old family. i miss the moment that we still living together, when my dad still alive. everything seems so perfect. and i never felt alone.
but i know, life will always had a problems. the more mature we are, the more problems that we will face it. i'm trying so hard to face it all. up and down, breaking up and togetherness, everything i face it!
somehow, i have realized, i'm becoming more stronger than before. little by little, i can move it up my spoiled characters. even though, sometimes my childish side, still come out, but i know that i have grown up and become mature woman.
broken hearted was something that makes me learn about life, and makes me more independent and really learn how to not give up easily. every time my strength is gone, i look up to God, and i know, i can become more stronger. i have faith in my life, that i can face it all with my own strength.
haters comes and go, but i never hate them. i always thank to them for being my haters. it makes me even more stronger because of them. and it makes me understand, how much they want it to be me but they can. and i know i have to thank them, because they are a part of my life that makes me stronger.
now i'm still living alone, but God sent me a new man into my life. a man that can't never imagine, the man that have so much kindness for me, the man that loving me that much. and a family that have so much love, even though i wasn't that close to my step dad, but i'm thanking God that He gave my mom a man in her old times.
after all bad moments happens in my life, now i can finally hear great melody in each day i have passes through. a melody that bring happiness into my life, and i'm thanking to God for it.
i know my journey doesn't end yet, there will be much more problems in front of my life. but i know, i can be strong, because i know i can!
i'm now strong enough to face it all, and i know, i'm free enough to living my own life. good and bad times, will always come, and i know i can be strong.
i'm thanking for all my past, i'm thanking for them who always there for me, i'm thanking to my mom for being so patience with me. i'm thanking to my best friends for always be there for me every time. and i'm thanking to you, the man that raising me up after all my strength is gone. because of u, i know i can be strong.
and i am thanking to you God..
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